Quantum of Solace

We saw the last James Bond movie "Quantum of Solace" at home today. I was reading the box after the movie and sudden I said, "Quantum of Solace 三個字, 我只識得個 "of" 字! 我英文可真差eh!!" It turns out none of us really know what it means.

Do you know what "Quantum of Solace" means? It turns out to be quiet sentimental eh?! Very meaningful!

Quantum - A desired/required amount of ...

Solace - Comfort, relief in sorrow

What would be my "Quantum of Solace" le? Where do YOU find your Quantum of Solace when you are in need?

Vitara Came Home Today!

Vitara came home today!

It feels very special this time the car came home. After 3 years, we finally got our own car!

I know it means alot to hubby, and I'm thankful we're finally able to get it!

It's such a deal, such a God-sent gift, more & better than what we could have asked for!

Let's enjoy it with Thanksgiving! Let's go for a ride! :)

too fast?

Doctor is very concerned about Blueberry's fast heart beat. This is creating alot of worries in my mind too. Doc says Blueberry maybe at 'stress'....& I'm in a lot of stress with this news!

Doc is asking me to take everything slow and easy...if I feel sick, do not wait but go to the hospital right away.

What's wrong my little blueberry...what's bothering you? Why are you stressed?

Scary thoughts....and I can only pray for a peaceful mind from God.

Slow slow....deep breath, 1---2----3---...

It's year-end at work! How do I slow down? How do I keep up with work and maintain professional while taking everything slow? I gotta learn to work in "split-personality"!!

Slow slow....deep breath, 1---2----3---...

Touched

Today is Friday, February 27th. We went for my first ultrasound.

This is day 1 of week #8. Baby is suppose to be the size of a blueberry now.

Saw the little heart beating...at 162/minute. It's a touching scene. There's LIFE inside my tummy. I can't see anything on the outside yet, well, my stomach is a little bloated, but that's just from the gas, not the bun. I can't feel much yet...But...there's life inside!! A tiny heart is beating!!

This is an amazing feeling.

"...you knit me together in my mother's womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made..." Psalm 139:13-14

How am I feeling?

How am I feeling? So far, I haven't felt much. I don't have much of an appetite and aches everywhere, and a little bloated. Other than that, I really don't have much complaints.

Have been doing a lot of reading on the internet, my biggest insight so far is, GOD does miracles. I am absolutely amazed as to how God knit this together. It's a true miracle. The tiny thing that started off the size of the 'point of an ball-point pen' is going to grow into a full human being? Pretty hard to warp my head around this concept!!

I've completed week 5 and unto week 6 now. According to some readings, baby's the size of a raisin now (about 1/10 of an inch, 1.5-3mm). Now, in that case, how come I feel my jeans are already tighter? Maybe it's just in my mind! But I feel I have to go shopping for new pants already :)

We are breaking the news to my parents and jF's b/s this weekend...my heart is already ponding just thinking about it!

The beginning of a million questions?

Today marks the new beginning of a milion questions I have in mind. All of a sudden it seems to be happening so quickly it seems unreal...Have you ever prayed for something you really wanted and then when God said "Yes", you say "is it for real"?

I don't know how to react yet...I have just about a million questions in my mind that I don't know where to begin. I pray to God for peace and joy. I pray that I will stay calm throughout....Not to get stressed, not to get worried about anything, because I know HE is in control.

Today, my biggest prayer is that God will provide hubby with a 'change' fast! ... well, ok, I should drop that "fast" word. I pray for it to happen in His Time!

For HE will make things beautiful in HIS time!

All tangled up

I'm having a lot of trouble gathering my thoughts and putting some logic to it. It's a painful process. Can I just run & hide? Cried my heart out and my eyes are like two boiled eggs...it hurts...my heart hurts too.

I can't talk about this anymore. I can't verbalize it when I'm sooo confused myself...my thoughts are not making sense. I feel no one can understand. How can others understand when I can't even comprehend? I don't want anyone to think I'm just thinking too much and stirring up a storm within myself for nothing...because it really hurts. If others think I'm just thinking something 多餘 it would hurt even more...so I guess I better not talk about it at all.

A strong voice is telling me I'm in the way...you guys could have had a much much more productive & fruitful session if it wasn't for me...I feel like I'm the "extra" that shouldn't have been there at all ... holding everyone up...It's not the first time...History is just repeating itself. I will never get better~that is a simple fact, coz I'm just dumb...maybe dumber than I thought...

Why me? There are so many others that are so much more talented than me. Why waste time? Why waste everyone's time? This is suppose to be joyful..but I'm feeling pain, not joy. WHY?

Why NOT me? I know you're going to ask this question...I don't know. Somehow I don't know if I'm ready to know...

I want to thank everyone for your kind words and comfort...I thank God especially for hubby's patience and prayers with me. I know the pressure if not from any of you.. you guys are all so sweet and patience with me....

Am I just being pushed down by the inner voice? Or is it God telling me this is a close door that I should stop banging my head against and leave the way for others?

I know it's how much I am willing to commit. But...what if I don't want to commit? Can I just serve in other places? Other places that's not as painful? I feel like I'm a little kid crying on the floor....

Yes I do want to glorify Him...but! aye... I don't know

All tangled up & frustrated~~

Get Moving! Day 28, keeping up with the pace

It has been quite a while since I last wrote. But hey! I am keeping up with the pace with my exercise gar!


Today is Day 28 of me moving and last week, I kinda reached a plateau, I'm not feeling the energy boost any more and I'm not sleeping well anymore... Over the weekend aC suggested that I take it up a notch, so this week I have been to 4 classes at the gym:

• Monday ~ Spinning
• Tuesday ~ Core Camp
• Wednesday ~ Flow Pilates
• Thursday ~ Boot Camp
• Friday (Today) ~ I'm DEAD with pain all over!!

hahaha....but I'm moving....and HEY! Here's what pL gave me for completing my first month! (My first "carrots")...Cool eh? Thx bud!