Booked!!

All of our bookings for SFO are finalized today. It still feels a little unreal and I keep on checking on cancellation policies with each thing we booked...Why do I feel so uneasy about this trip? Excited though!! And really looking forward to it! Maybe it's still the finances I'm worried about...I mean, we spent soooo much this past 4 months and it's going to take a while to get back on track...and now we are planning another trip? Just doesn't sit right...but hey! Things will work out I guess...and we do NEED to be there!! :)

Ok BBV, get ready for another plane ride soon! He is going to be so much bigger this time, I wonder how things will go! :)

Growing

Today I took BBV for his 15-month check up + shots at the doctor. Every time I go for these check ups it feels like I'm going there for a report card…to see how much my baby weights and how tall he is…to see how he measures 'against the chart'.

It's a funny feeling. Part of me knows it's not up to me how much he grows….whether his height meets a certain percentile…but part of me feels that if I had taken good care of him, he should be well fed and *exercised*, then he should be "on the chart" and meet all developmental benchmarks…..I know these are silly thoughts…but don't all moms feel that way? I don’t' know.. Maybe it's just me.

Blueberry knows sooooo much now….It's amazing what's going on in that little brain! He can't even really talk yet! But somehow you can start to see 'logic' in things that he do. His actions are more than just "random acts" nowadays….you can talk to him and know that he does sort of understands…

It's such a privilege to see him grow and develop. Life is a miracle. It feels like only yesterday when he was just the size of a Blueberry!

Oh my Blueberry! Oh my BBV! I wanna bite you! :D

Hot Yoga

I started a Hot Yoga class today. Got this incredible deal from the web for 10 classes…I went with no expectation, since I failed the last try completely.

I liked it. Because the teacher didn't push us to do weird poses..Because she didn't speak some weird languages…Because there was a lot of people in the room at different level so I didn't feel like a complete idiot....Because the room was sooooo warm (gotta love that part when it was -23 degrees outside! I was warmed to the bones!!!!)

I'm not going to push myself AT ALL! This to me is about relaxation…about taking deep breaths and stretching my muscles…I want to enjoy these classes, as "me" time! I'm not even going to rush through my shower…I'm going to take my time and relax!

It's NOT about being able to stand on my head.

Your toddler at 15 month...

BBV is 15 months old today. Pampers sent me an email this morning with the subject line: "Your toddler at 15 month". My reaction was: my 'Toddler'? What do you mean by my "TODDLER"? He is still my BABY!!

It is truly amazing and scary how fast time has just flew by and I have a toddler now! I thank God for giving me the happy healthy baby and even though the more he learn the more 'naughty' he will be I'm sure…I am just sooo glad that I've taken this journey as a mom. So much I've learnt and so much more we know to depend on HIM, for it is HIM that gives LIFE and He is the only one in control!

A Toddler?! What do I do with a toddler? So much to ponder about!

Day 3: Already a challenge...

This morning was tough! We had a wonderful dinner last night..had way too much food and both me & Allen were like on sleepy pills even before we got home!! Went to bed earlier than usual but still, this morning I sooooooo wanted to stay in bed. But somehow I still pulled myself up for my morning exercise…knowing that I'm going to be writing actually provided a good motivation.. Haha, so that my journal don't record 'failed' just on the 2nd trial day…hahaha…I felt good after the exercise and reading :)

Just purchased a 10-classes pass for Hot Yoga for $19 today…not a bad price to try out something new eh? I wonder if I will like it or not...Crazy deals on the internet these days…loving them! :)

There will be a small snowstorm tonight, and we are meeting a friend for dinner...Hopefully the drive won't be bad...

Day 2: On the tread...

So today is day#2. I had a very quiet afternoon and night last night thanks to hubby who took complete care of BBV and let me (forced me to) rest. It was good rest…not just sleeping-rest. I made plans in my head about what I can do, about my routines, time to serve, time with God, time for exercise ..and of course, also ran through my head what needs to be done this week, both at work and at home….

One of the first thing I wanted to tackle is this exercising thing. Doctor(s) keep on saying I don't have enough "hei" (air), and thus my weak body and immune. There are soups/food they suggested but ultimately it's exercising. Of course hubby jumps on it coz that proves what he has always been nagging me about. So what can I do and when can I fit it in? I tried to do it this morning, that is, at 6am! The alarm was set at 545am but I just couldn't get up…but I did manage to be on the treadmill by 6am and did 25 minutes on it. I also started reading a book on prayers while walking on the tread…

Guess it's not a bad start eh?

Today is also hubby's birthday..>> Happy Birthday to You, Happy Birthday to You, Happy Birthday to B-Bo, Happy Birthday to you! ^.^

It has been so long...

It has been the longest while since the last time I was here…and as I logged in, wow! Really? It has been THAT long? wow! What have happened??

Life has been busy for sure since BBV's arrival. I'm not complaining at all, it has been all good and full of blessings...but have also throw ALOT of my "wanted-to-be" routines out the window...from exercising to, embarrassed to say, to prayers and time with God.

Anyways...trying to pick up writing again, more to myself than anyone...see if it will help me organize my thoughts and life...trying to get discipline again on many facet of life...

Not telling the whole world about it (me trying to get back into many of the "wanna be" routines) yet …maybe I'm afraid to set up expectations and fail…or is that lack of self-confidence or, even being little faith? If you happen to be reading this, pray for me.

Let's see how it goes… :)