98 days to go!

We are approaching the end of July already? I haven't wrote for soooo long already! All of a sudden as I look into the baby app on my phone, it says 98 days to go! WHAT? less than a 100 days now?!?!? This is both exciting and scary! Time is going both slow and fast!

This pregnancy has been sooo different from BBV. I had morning sickness all the way for 5 months...(although it came in the evenings only)...hardly gain any weight in the first 4 months, and then all of a sudden I'm HUGE! My backpains and leg-pains are killing me at times and I'm dead tired all the time! Overall, it has been more 辛苦 and much more emotional than last time. Not sure if it's because I'm older and hasn't recover well from the last round. Blame it on anything, I feel it has been a long pregnancy and I still have 3+ months to go!

On the other hand, it's going to be sooooo fast that our lives will be changed again! BBV will have sooo much to adopt and so will everyone in the family. BBV is certainly moving into the terrible two stage now and I can so feel the challenge of parenting for one already, let alone another one on the way! Can we do it? I guess we have no choice and can only rely on God to provide enough wisdom, love and patience!

98 more days to go...(that is, if Bunny doesn't come early)...let's make the most out of this summer!! :)

My bunny is now the size of an eggplant! WOW!

196 Days to go...

196 days to go... I'm in Week 12 now. Can't wait for my appointment next Monday to see the little heart and the little studs again!

The past 2 months has been tough. More difficult than when carrying BBV. Maybe I haven't recover well from the last one...we are hoping because it's a girl the symptoms are different...maybe it's just me getting older. Regardless of the "why", I had been more sick and felt more exhausted with this one. Trying hard to stay positive. I don't want baby to feel any negative vibe. I want her/him to be a happy baby like BBV! :)

I thank God soooo much for hubby. He has been superb supportive in every possible way! The past 2 months hasn't been any easier for him; taking care of both me & BBV is hard work! I guess he is getting a good practice for taking care of two! I'm so looking forward to getting my energy back and be able to do more and take back some load from him.

This past few days has been sooooo exciting! First dB's little Carsten, then fG's little Lois, 公主駕到! :) I can't wait to see the little angel! I was surprised when we visited aL for her new baby. I thought I was well trained with BBV. However it turns out that when holding to a newly newborn, I have lost touch of what to do with that little bundle of joy! I can't even wrap him properly!! I better train up myself again!!

Praying praying to my Lord for a smooth, healthy next 7 months! I soooo want to enjoy this to the fullest! This is my last round! I want to make the most of it! Praising my Heavenly Father for LIFE, and how He is seeing me through every step of the way!

I'm a mom now! I will be a good girl! I made my resolution over Easter and I'm going to keep it! I'm not going to let myself fall again!! Not anymore!!! :) With Him, all is possible! And I'm sure He is in support of me!! I can do this!!!

Wk 4 Day 4

How do I feel today? I'm not as sick as last week..I was surprised I felt sick so early in and now I'm surprised it's gone so fast...is that it? Or just a little peace before the storm? Am I just of little faith and not trust that prayers can really make the sickness go away? I feel of little faith that I'm not trusting God enough...Becuase everyone says when you had an easy first one, your second round will be rough and so I'm 'expecting' it to be rough...but maybe I shouldn't think that way because God CAN work miracles, right? RIGHT! I should keep strong faith! What did God say to the people before they move into the promised land. He said: "It's ALREADY yours! But you must follow me in patience and in faith".

The clock is ticking...my little bunny is coming!

Maybe it WILL be a mui mui? :)

A new Chapter

A new chapter is ahead of us!!! It still feels very unreal. I don't know why I feel that way...we wanted it and God answered prayers..but I still feel quiet unsettled. I don't know if this anxiety is normal or not...but I am learning to pray pray pray...to give my worries to God and to trust Him wholeheartedly because HE promised He will watch over me. He is God .. the one who cared so much my hairs are counted! So what's to worry?

This new chapter is going to be soooo exciting! I am praying for a smooth ride! :)

A I morning...

Disappointed but I guess I should have expected it…I really should focus on lossing those pounds and get my metabolism back on track…I'm feeling so 'low' these days physically and yes, the freezing temperature doesn't help! Stay FOCUS Jenny! Stay FOCUS!!

Things are going well…the morning tread time isn't working out so well, only on days when I have had a good sleep, but I've been to 3 hot yoga classes so far, getting some good strentches and getting warmed up to the bones! Oh that part always feel soooo good, esepcially in such weather! This past few weeks has been soooooo cold!!

Getting ready for Chinese New Year…Already? Yea, it's already Lin 29 today! The house's not ready and we haven't even buy red-pocket yet…but the mood is certainly in the air. We took out BBV's New Year outfit last night, it's funny how the pants still don't fit and ti's suppose to be infant size? I don’t think he will fit in them even next year! But he looks sooooo cute in the jacket and the cap! Oh my BBV!! Do you know you are sooooo cute?! :D

Booked!!

All of our bookings for SFO are finalized today. It still feels a little unreal and I keep on checking on cancellation policies with each thing we booked...Why do I feel so uneasy about this trip? Excited though!! And really looking forward to it! Maybe it's still the finances I'm worried about...I mean, we spent soooo much this past 4 months and it's going to take a while to get back on track...and now we are planning another trip? Just doesn't sit right...but hey! Things will work out I guess...and we do NEED to be there!! :)

Ok BBV, get ready for another plane ride soon! He is going to be so much bigger this time, I wonder how things will go! :)

Growing

Today I took BBV for his 15-month check up + shots at the doctor. Every time I go for these check ups it feels like I'm going there for a report card…to see how much my baby weights and how tall he is…to see how he measures 'against the chart'.

It's a funny feeling. Part of me knows it's not up to me how much he grows….whether his height meets a certain percentile…but part of me feels that if I had taken good care of him, he should be well fed and *exercised*, then he should be "on the chart" and meet all developmental benchmarks…..I know these are silly thoughts…but don't all moms feel that way? I don’t' know.. Maybe it's just me.

Blueberry knows sooooo much now….It's amazing what's going on in that little brain! He can't even really talk yet! But somehow you can start to see 'logic' in things that he do. His actions are more than just "random acts" nowadays….you can talk to him and know that he does sort of understands…

It's such a privilege to see him grow and develop. Life is a miracle. It feels like only yesterday when he was just the size of a Blueberry!

Oh my Blueberry! Oh my BBV! I wanna bite you! :D

Hot Yoga

I started a Hot Yoga class today. Got this incredible deal from the web for 10 classes…I went with no expectation, since I failed the last try completely.

I liked it. Because the teacher didn't push us to do weird poses..Because she didn't speak some weird languages…Because there was a lot of people in the room at different level so I didn't feel like a complete idiot....Because the room was sooooo warm (gotta love that part when it was -23 degrees outside! I was warmed to the bones!!!!)

I'm not going to push myself AT ALL! This to me is about relaxation…about taking deep breaths and stretching my muscles…I want to enjoy these classes, as "me" time! I'm not even going to rush through my shower…I'm going to take my time and relax!

It's NOT about being able to stand on my head.